||| SUN DAYS ON ORCAS by EDEE KULPER |||
God, I believe in you because I want to.
I want to be there someday, wherever “there” is.
I’d love more proof and I doubt more than I ever used to. Is that part of adulting?
I know we’re all in constant revision, but gosh, there’s a lot of growing put upon us.
A lot of times, I can’t genuinely pray other people’s prayers or sing other people’s songs.
Some claim to know you as a father. Some claim to know you as a friend.
I want to be there someday, wherever “there” is.
I’d love more proof and I doubt more than I ever used to. Is that part of adulting?
I know we’re all in constant revision, but gosh, there’s a lot of growing put upon us.
A lot of times, I can’t genuinely pray other people’s prayers or sing other people’s songs.
Some claim to know you as a father. Some claim to know you as a friend.
I can’t say I know you intimately and you know I have a hard time when other people say they do. Can some while others can’t?
Is it about fairness or do you reveal yourself differently to everyone, like fingerprints?
But if you are real, you know I want in.
If you’re all-encompassing love, you know I want to be part of that forever.
I’m trying my best to step out of all the flawed ways of imagining you that have been passed along to me by others.
But if you are real, no one truly knows how all this works. We’re all just trying to understand.
So please forgive me when I don’t get it.
Please help me know I am being guided, if you are guiding me as it says you are.
And if love is the reason for everything, please let love be more obvious than all the other stuff crowding around it.
Is it about fairness or do you reveal yourself differently to everyone, like fingerprints?
But if you are real, you know I want in.
If you’re all-encompassing love, you know I want to be part of that forever.
I’m trying my best to step out of all the flawed ways of imagining you that have been passed along to me by others.
But if you are real, no one truly knows how all this works. We’re all just trying to understand.
So please forgive me when I don’t get it.
Please help me know I am being guided, if you are guiding me as it says you are.
And if love is the reason for everything, please let love be more obvious than all the other stuff crowding around it.
and maybe get an update from your brother some of us believe/have faith in Jesus Christ
And some of us approach metaphorical stories as metaphors rather than literal fact…
The annual agricultural cycle of sprouting, maturation, setting seed and dissolution, leading to the next generation of seeds sprouting the next Spring has led to resurrection stories across the entire globe. Whether you venerate Eastre, Mithras, the rabbi from Galilee, or any other deity, it is always good to keep in mind that we are merely human beings and, as such, we are incapable of grasping the totality of reality. Each of us can try to describe our own experience of the ineffable but let us remember that we are each perceiving only a small portion of reality and even that through an infinitely unique point of view.
And when you think about it, not only is the year beginning anew in this season but each moment of existence is a sort of resurrection. The past is over, it is dead and unchangeable. The present is what it is and we have to deal with it as it is, not as we might wish it were. But the future is yet to be and it will be shaped, to some extent at least, by what we do NOW. So let us live each new moment as a resurrection, a new beginning and a chance to help shape a better future.
Happy Spring!