To my many friends and neighbors: as you may have heard I am going through a fairly nasty form of cancer. However, early reports that I had just three weeks to live were not entirely accurate. Here’s the current story:
Back in July, I started having trouble swallowing food. As someone without health insurance, living on an island, with little savings, and who hadn’t been to a doctor in forty years, I approached it as I had always done—as an issue of diet and nutrition. Gave up certain foods, tried different supplements, and worked with several local healers trying to figure out just what was going on and how to fix it.
Unfortunately, while we were doing all that, food was getting more difficult to swallow, and I was losing weight and energy. Finally, had a round of blood work, stool tests and an x-ray which all came up negative. While eating just got harder and harder.
Two weeks ago we finally opted for an emergency room visit to St Joe’s in Bellingham. First, the good news: a lady named Lucia sat us down and said “Don’t worry! One way or another everything will be paid for.” (I was sure she thought she was still living in Cuba). She was followed by a number of angels who each did their bit to make it so. Penny and I are not only NOT sliding deep into debt, I may even be receiving some disability payments.
My dear America, the way it ought to be….
So we got the big test — a cat-scan — and discovered a tumor had been slowing growing in my esophagus, ultimately closing the feeding tube off completely. They also noticed a suspicious spot on my liver which led to the “Three weeks to go” pronouncement. A couple other docs have since said it might be benign, but none has said my death is imminent.
I am home from the hospital now, all set up with another band of angels — local caregivers here at the house 24/7 to help with my recovery, while simultaneously helping Penny manage our affairs.
We are so very blessed.
Lily’s come home from college and will be here through the summer.
However much time I have–and I’m thinking months/years rather that days/weeks, will be devoted to three main tasks. First, I am just days from publishing a first novel that I am pretty happy with. More on that when it’s done.
Second, I need to responsibly pass on my web development business, and hope to have completed that over the next couple days.
Third, I’ve got friends dropping in from all over the world and look forward to soaking up every moment.
And finally, I intend to live into my nineties. I’ve got a feeding tube inserted that is starting to build my strength and weight back up. We’re filling it with every cancer-fighting agent we know of. And we will be doing a few rounds of radiation to shrink the tumor, perhaps just enough to allow some eating, but hopefully enough to be able to remove it.
I will finish by saying that the two days when I thought I was passing quickly were absolutely glorious. It has been a wonderful life, one unending gift. No regrets. But I just don’t think I’m done yet.
love and blessings,
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Thank you Michael for the update. And I laughed out loud at the “I was sure she thought she was still living in Cuba.” Keeping so many positive thoughts headed your way (and Penny’s and Lily’s) — Janet Brownell
Michael, your note to the community brought a smile to my face. Your friends on Orcas miss you greatly, and your humor and honesty helps all of us. Janet and I want to be first to make reservations to be at your Ninetieth Birthday Party! — Lance Evans
Michael,
Thank you for sharing your journey and we are rooting for you.
As yours is a liquid diet, I raise my glass to you!
To beatha*,
Gretchen
*The word for life is “beatha”. (Pronounced beh-ha) For example “uisge beatha” (whisky) means “water of life”.
Thank you, thank you for sharing this news. You’re not done yet!
Michael,
so sorry to hear of your cancer, but love to read about the upturns and angels you’ve attracted to your side to help both you and Penny. I am happy you are on Orcas, it is the place to be.
Perhaps you will take photos of the good and the bad and post them to your Facebook albums.
Best to you and prayers for your speedy and strength filled recovery.
(And how did Lily end up in college? Isn’t she like in fifth grade?)
Carol Wright
in Mtn. View, CA
caring for mother with alzheimer’s
Michael…so good to hear from the horse’s mouth what is going on. Continued prayers for a full and complete recovery, one moment at a time. Prayers and love flowing your way, Snooze and Davo
Thank you for the update i to lift my glass to you and send only good thoughts your way
Thank you Michael for taking the time to connect with us and give the whole story. I especially loved the part where you described the days when you thought you had days or weeks to live as “glorious.” We will be sending love and good thoughts your way and I will help decorate for your ninetieth birthday party!! Lots of love from, Donna Laslo (Jonathan & Matthew, too)
Dear Michael,
You don’t know me but I was very touched by your story. I am very impressed with your optimism and upbeat attitude. I wish you healing and an easy ride to your nineties. You are truly blessed.
Sky
Hang in there, we will keep you both in our prayers.
Dave
Dear Michael,
As always, you are teaching us! Once again you show us how to connect and be real. Thank you for reaching out in this time for you, when energy must be low, and leading the way.
I intend to celebrate with you at 90!
blessing and restored health,
kate
Michael,
You are a blessing. Thank you for being you. :)
You are an inspiration. Thank you for sharing the details of your current chapter with us. Sending love & support to you and your family. Like Lance, I also what to reserve my ticket for your 90th b-day party.
Hi MICHAEL, Just want to say that even though we have not been in your close vicinity for years, you and Penny and Lily are very close to our hearts!!! You have made such a profound impact into our lives. Our early years of connection through fire walking, chiropractic, breathing, babies, our babies growing up and walking on fire with you, laughter, more breathing, etc are moments that I will cherish forever! You are loved…you are in our prayers…you are amazing!!! Love and hugs, Patti & Peter, (Katie) Kathryn & Christopher